I am so angry, I don’t even know where to start. OMFG. so many things going on. I asked the S.O. last week to make sure and take some time and talk to me, that we need to talk about some big financial stuff. he got involved with family stuff over the weekend..fine. when he did get online at 6am Sunday morning, I asked that he please give me some time later, since he would be off work that day. to not blow me off. and what has happened? I have been blown off for 3 days now. ok, fine. So my son oversleeps this morning for school, which ends up being a good thing, because I can go in and take care of some stuff that needs taking care of.

on the way there, he decides he wants to talk to me about my parents. So I end up having to explain more to him than I really wanted to, and it was not exactly when I wanted to have this discussion with him..but it was necessary. While on the way as well, the whole thing of the “finals dance” comes up. it is sort of an 8th grade end of the year celebration. to commemorate all of the middle school years. I had gotten an email a while back about it, and had volunteered to bring in some stuff, and specifically asked to make sure he would be able to attend, there was not problem because of his earlier suspension stuff. I was told no, as far as they knew there was no problem. I mention this to him, and he tells me no he can’t go. So while I am there getting his transcript stuff, I ask about this, and am told no, in fact he can’t attend. I need to talk to the asst. principal.

So I go to talk to her, and she is a raging BITCH. omg i despise her. she doesn’t know crap, and gives me a different excuse every 5 minutes. the bottom line is she says no, he can’t go, because he got suspended 2 months ago for calling a teacher by their first name. not only did he have an out of school suspension, was humiliated by his teacher when he got back who FORGOT he was suspended and pushed the issue of “where were you” in front of the entire class, he got kicked from the school play entirely, (that he had a lead role in), couldn’t go to fun night stuff, but NOW can’t go to the end of the year deal. So, its no wonder he has no motivation to do anything. they try and say they make a big deal and let them know ahead of time don’t screw up or you miss out on this and its good motivation for the last 6 weeks..but it is not. they basically tell you that if you mess up at all, you will be serially punished for the rest of the year. I am so angry I could spit nails. She takes some information and says she will look into it, but its total crap.

I come home already in a snit..and find an email from my mother of “don’t know if you care or not, but your Aunt Jane has been diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer that has spread to her liver. she is getting an MRI to see if it spread to her brain keep her in your prayers”.  wow. I sent an email back thanking for the information and requesting an address and phone number to send a card and flowers. this should be interesting. I had tried to call my friend on the way home, but she was on her way out the door to go to eat for a birthday celebration for other people. what would be my next thing? to try and call S.O. I wanted to ask him to please get online when he wakes up, cause LOTS of crap is going on here. I actually get someone, his brother, who hands him the phone, and he just hangs up on me. doesn’t say anything..just hangs up the phone. which he KNOWS pisses me off more than anything in the universe. I give him the benefit of the doubt and try calling back, no answer. So, he did hang up on me, and doesn’t want to even BOTHER to find out what is going on.

I am SO angry..I can’t breath. not only was I so angry coming home, that I can’t wait to get the hell out of the town and away from this god forsaken miserable excuse for a school system..but now I am FURIOUS with him too. he has NO problem jumping online at a cyber cafe to check with me about the GODDAMN car, to get money for it..but can’t be bothered to NOT hang up on me. bad enough he doesn’t want to take the time to talk to me when I ask for it..but then hangs up on me when I need him. So as usual, there is no one. I have NO ONE to talk to. just rant and rave here. ugh. it is too much. all this does, is leave me feeling as usual, that I just have to do everything myself.