went on a new adventure in my “back yard” of  la hausteca ecological park. took a bunch of cool pictures. uploaded them to my flickr page, you can see them there. I was very glad that I did that. I went out, took pictures, drove around for a while.  then went shopping, and went to the movies, all by myself. it felt really good to get out of the house. I needed that desperately. Things are not going as I would like them to, not by a long shot. I am struggling constantly to just get basic things done. I feel like I have zero support, and lots of extra work. I am so frustrated with it all, that I just want to run away. its horrible. I hate feeling so stuck. I really don’t know what I am going to do next. I must find a way to get some income coming in, or we will be totally screwed. I don’t regret coming here, not yet at least. I just wish I could get everyone else to understand the sense of urgency I feel. how important it is to stop wasting time. that we are gonna turn around and find ourselves with NOTHING if we don’t act soon. but I seem to be the only one who sees that, or at least who gives a crap, or is not paralyzed with fear over it. I don’t know. I guess as usual, I am stuck having to make some really difficult crappy decisions. and not liking my options too much. but at this point it has to be done.

but at least I got to enjoy some prettiness here for a while. take a look at my flickr page, I still find it amazing that all this natural beauty and wonder is right in the midst of a city of over 6 million people. thinchs is just 3 pics out of a whole bunc.h