time for a change with this- new theme, new layout, new everything. goes along with my new life. This used to be a blog with lots of crying and shouting over the frustrations of a long distance relationship, primarily. now, it has moved onto the new adventures of the old Sarita…I have finally moved. the basics about me are- single mom of a teenage son, ex-nurse that can’t work due to severe on the job injury. I have recently relocated to Monterrey, Mexico and am here with my son and boyfriend. its crazy, I can’t speak Spanish, I am overwhelmed, but also love being here too. the picture on the front page is taken from my house. it is just one of the views right out my door. so, still continue reading at your own risk- I am still stressed, still insane, have no clue what I am doing, and subject to random ranting at all hours of the day and night.
ok…so by now, I have lots of posts. and quite a few hits. very interesting. and making me feel a little self-conscious too I must say.
I have no perspective when it comes to reading my posts. I realize, that it is really is an external manifestation of all the noise in my head..the sad part it is only a small part of the noise. there is so much more that I don’t blog. I worry that I come off as a chemically imbalanced whiny baby. I certainly don’t mean to. It is because this is the only safe place for me to run in circles going “ahhhhh ahhhhhh OMG i am so F-’d up what the hell am I doing ahhhhhhh ahhhhhh OMG!!!!”
otherwise, I must play like a normal person and take care of things. my dogs, my child, my house, my friends..that sort of thing. and I do this here, so I don’t subject my real life people to it. hmmmm which makes me wonder- which is a greater sin..emotionally vomiting all my crap here online for everyone in the virtual world to be subjected to it..or doing it to my few close friends and making them totally insane and ready to kill/maim/involuntarily commit me, thus ending up in prison/mental hospital themselves. I am thinking if I do it here is better dear readers. you can at least run away!
I think as long as I continue to be sober, (its 16 years now) desire to remain that way, do not want to substitute drugs/sex/eating/gambling/shopping/insert addiction here, I must keep blogging. ROTFL
By: saritasecrets on May 14, 2008
at 11:43 pm